During this whole experience with losing my mom they have been there for me and willing to hear the worst of it.
the world is an amazing place people you just have to really be willing to look at it.
So I am off to watch 5 hours of “Friends” ”The Office” and “3rd Rock From the Sun”
I saw my mother today and I cried for the first time in front of her. It was kind of a build up of emotions because today was my last day at school as well and you have to understand that i’ve been with these people everyday for four years.
So when she asked me to put on my graduation clothes for her, I started bawling.
Me and my Mom have been through so much together even before the cancer and now that i’m graduating I am just filled with so much joy and love for her and my friends.
I don’t care about how many follower’s I get because I still love all you guys. I actually take the time to read your post about your life and even worse when something goes wrong in your life it makes me sad or concerned.
There is no way I could be this comfortable and confident without you guys, seeing you live life and go through the same shit I have to is amazing because suddenly you realize Your not alone.
You guys are just so fucking awesome and I just wanted to let you know.
This summer I wouldnt mind getting to know all of you.
Even during the worst parts of this year I never lost my compassion for others, and I never really gave myself credit for it until right now.
Today one of my friends was really upset and I kinda just sensed something was wrong so I stopped everything I was doing until I knew what was wrong and found some way to help.
I think I deserve at least the highest of fives because I really do love this world sometimes
I worry about my friends sometimes when I realize they’re listening to sloppy rap.
It makes me want to just show them what good rap really is and not something that has gun shots in the back ground or horn blaring as the base track.
If you tell anyone I have a Tumblr or mention anything I post…..
I will fucking Murder you in your sleep
I had a really good time with my friends tonight because it was one of those outing where all we did was talk, and it was perfect just because of that. It was really fulfilling even though we just talked about the most random stuff revolving around our lives and sex. This is what i’m hoping college will be like for me, just one fulfilling conversation after another.
So I posted something a few days ago about how fucked up I was after a previous relationship, well guess what? I forgot she had a tumblr account and she follows me -_-. The thing is I don’t follow her (because her blog bores me) and she gets on maybe once a month. So when she saw my post, she texted the next day asking if I needed to talk about something with her because she read my post in her “News Feed”………… (her words not mine btw I corrected her in the very next message). But anyway she said she would call me around mid night and we would talk about it. I was so nervous about it because I use to have such strong feelings for this girl that it hurt to hear before. Except something had changed……………… the conversation started off awkwardly, like a child who knows she’s done something bad, but soon I just told her like it was why I wrote that post without sugar coating it. There was no pain anymore, I wasn’t afraid of saying the wrong thing, and I wasn’t sucked into her shitty use of metaphors to explain herself. I finally realized what was different from all those other times we had talked before, I didn’t give a fuck anymore and I saw right through her bull shit. She started to talk about her new boyfriend now to try and make me feel bad, But I DIDN’T CARE!! I went on a rant about me and my girlfriend and it was like the power I never had before. I was finally happy without her and she hated it!! She hated the fact that I had a great meaningful relationship and she was still doing her stupid shallow relationships with some guy at VCU. I had grown up and she hadn’t and she knew it was obvious. I slayed my dragon by letting all the good things in my new life give me strength and by the time we got off the phone She asked if I still wanted to be friends, and I told her no straight up. I have amazing friends, a kick ass girlfriend, and followers on tumblr who have taught me “To not Give Fuck” and (pardon the phrase) ” Fuck Bitches and Get Money Instead”. So thank you guys!! I couldn’t have done it without you! :)