- Jessica: Can I have some of your drink?
- Me: I will murder you
There is always that moment of where you want to ask
“Is it me”
- “I thought about it and I don’t see why your so pissed about getting my heart if you needed it because I gave it to you a long time ago”
“The fact that your here with me during my period of growth should speak about how lucky we are. These days right now will define my future and if I had picked someone who lacked any of the qualities you have it may have ended up hurting me. Because your my rock sometimes and even when I just have to shut down your there waiting to hear the first words to come out of my mouth. Sometimes it just hurts to try and express these things because I can’t every add the pressure and intensity behind it like when I feel them building up in my chest. I want to experince a lot with you to but one at a time so we can make this last forever.”
- “Every child of the goddess is perfect and there is no exceptions. Every tool and gift given to mankind is neither weak nor is it to be used as a crutch. The pain you suffer now is unbearable which I completly understand but its not going to be the thing that will break you. I feel like the goddess gave me the gift of empathy so I can help people that unders can’t, I feel your pain sometimes when I look into your eyes but I remember that its only a sliver of what you must feel when your alone. If your looking for a tool to help you deal with your depression well consider me that gift then. Because I won’t ever let you break while I’m at your side”
My Mind: Don’t do it!
My Mind: I Swear to God, your just going to feel bad and want to cry if you Look at it!!
My Mind: Don’t Fucking do it !!!!!
*Looks at old photos of when they were together*
So I posted something a few days ago about how fucked up I was after a previous relationship, well guess what? I forgot she had a tumblr account and she follows me -_-. The thing is I don’t follow her (because her blog bores me) and she gets on maybe once a month. So when she saw my post, she texted the next day asking if I needed to talk about something with her because she read my post in her “News Feed”………… (her words not mine btw I corrected her in the very next message). But anyway she said she would call me around mid night and we would talk about it. I was so nervous about it because I use to have such strong feelings for this girl that it hurt to hear before. Except something had changed……………… the conversation started off awkwardly, like a child who knows she’s done something bad, but soon I just told her like it was why I wrote that post without sugar coating it. There was no pain anymore, I wasn’t afraid of saying the wrong thing, and I wasn’t sucked into her shitty use of metaphors to explain herself. I finally realized what was different from all those other times we had talked before, I didn’t give a fuck anymore and I saw right through her bull shit. She started to talk about her new boyfriend now to try and make me feel bad, But I DIDN’T CARE!! I went on a rant about me and my girlfriend and it was like the power I never had before. I was finally happy without her and she hated it!! She hated the fact that I had a great meaningful relationship and she was still doing her stupid shallow relationships with some guy at VCU. I had grown up and she hadn’t and she knew it was obvious. I slayed my dragon by letting all the good things in my new life give me strength and by the time we got off the phone She asked if I still wanted to be friends, and I told her no straight up. I have amazing friends, a kick ass girlfriend, and followers on tumblr who have taught me “To not Give Fuck” and (pardon the phrase) ” Fuck Bitches and Get Money Instead”. So thank you guys!! I couldn’t have done it without you! :)
